I’m just trying to remember new names and identify all new faces. Its hard.
Sometimes meeting all these new people in all these new places makes my heart hurt.
I’m just trying to live the way Jesus told me to and love in a likewise manner and so I connect. And then I have to leave. And a piece of my heart stays with them. Its hard.
I was thinking about this concept today as Christina and I visited an Orphanage in downtown Quito with the Global Encounters team.
The kids were so excited to see us. So ready to give hugs and laugh… and play around with our expensive cameras.
Personally, I had an amazing time just kicking a soccer ball around with 9 little 8 year old's and sharing my cookie with a 3 year old.Today I held many dirty hands.
Today, I shared smiles with beautiful faces.
Today I wondered if it hurt them more for me to come and love and leave than it would if I hadn’t come at all.
Today, I looked into to big brown eyes and knew the answer.
Its hard for me to get into circumstances as such and connect myself- really connect myself and then leave. Its hard for me to become vulnerable all over again and again and again. I don’t like it. Really, I don’t.
But today, playing with the kids- just laughing, and watching and holding them- it struck me.
Its always better- always- to love. To connect.
It hurts to connect and then leave.
But it hurts me more not to.
Those orphan kids might forget about me tomorrow.
But I gotta love anyway.
Its what Jesus did for me.
I can do no less.
"People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.
People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway."
Mother Teresa
p.s.
I finished the screenplay today.
Hazaa.
-Laura Clawson
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